Early in the pregnancy DeAnna knew there was a problem. Rushed to the hospital in Indianapolis they performed a procedure to drain excess fluid out of her womb. This still did not fix the problem. Baby Silas was accumulating fluid on his lungs. A few months later DeAnna was rushed again to Indianapolis and then on to regional specialty hospital in Cincinnati. An extraordinary procedure was performed within her womb to continue to preserve the life of Silas.
Doctors operated on Silas inside his mother’ womb.
The pressure was on to keep Silas in as long as possible. His condition which I can’t hope to remember the name of threatened his life. He needed to be as healthy as possible before entering this world.
Finally, on May 19 they moved again to save his life. He was born via C-section and immediately put on life-support. Ventilators, IVs, and other tubes supporting his life for the first few weeks. Day by miracle he is starting to make gains.
The pictures of baby Silas’s life are heart wrenching. To see such a little guy going through so much. I know what it’s like to take my daughter week after week and plugged into IVs and knocked out with sedation. I can’t imagine seeing my child on a ventilator and clinging onto his life.
I can’t get Silas off my mind. The little guy has taught me a lot without even meeting him. I want to share a few things Silas’s life has taught and reminded me of.
In his little life Silas has been the recipient of thousands of prayers, tens of thousands of dollars of medical treatment, and the focus and attention of hundreds. He has a very high priority level in the lives of many. In fact he just got his own personal room the other day (because of a week immune system).
But is he worth it?
I could say many of the same things about my daughter Isabelle. I love her and I would lay my life down for her.
But is she valuable only because I’ve chosen to value her?
I’m challenged to think how much I really believe the words of God for every child:
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” -Psalm 139: 13-16 (NIV)
When I see passages like the one above I must answer the question with a resounding yes. Silas is worth it. Isabelle is worth it. They’re not worth it because they have parents who love them. They’re worth it because God made them on purpose.
Seeing Silas must call me to remember that all children are worthy of love. And every person I run into is someone made in the image of God. God planned the days of their life. They are worth loving and paying attention to.
I love seeing stories of how men and women have leveraged difficulties from their past into making a difference in the future. I have seen quite a few of those at Riley Children’s Hospital. And I know that for me Isabel’s sickness has challenged me to live life on purpose.
What about Silas?
I see a little boy with so much potential. Potential to motivate the prayers and love of hundreds of people around his family. Potential to grow into a strong boy and young man. Potential to grow up and make a difference in the lives of others because of what he has survived. And he doesn’t even need to become a doctor! If Silas simply lives one day at a time grateful for the life God has given him that will make a difference for others. His story is profound.
Since this little guy’s story is just beginning he is going to need loads of prayer. Mom and dad need your prayers too. And while you’re at it pray for older sister. As Silas lives he will continue to need all sorts of support and care and love in the near future. As you and I pray, let’s listen and see what God wants us to do to love on Silas and his family.
Silas is a wonderful little boy and he hasn’t spoken a word and is barely openned his eyes. He has worthy because he is made in the image of God on purpose. I look forward to the changes created by the potential of his life. I plan to continue the discipline of prayer for this little guy and his family.
As I look around me I need to allow the pain that I see two prick my heart into action. For the Christian, this means looking at others with value and responding first with prayer. This means seeing the potential in others. This means pursuing and loving others.