You don’t miss sleep until childcare steals it away.
You don’t miss good health until the stomach flu arrives in you.
You don’t miss Christian Community until you can’t go to church.
Palm Sunday morning in bed made for a weird start to my day. I eased into the day with hope my throwing up ended at 2:30am. This now constituted my second Sunday away from home this year. Both for illness! I missed my church.
I well and truly missed the hugs, smiles, songs and encouragement of church.
I laugh at how often I fail to appreciate the good I have. From health, to faith, to family and more blessing abound. Yet too often loss serves as the reminder of what I had. Not pleasant enjoyment of the moment…
So let me talk about faith….
When I think of suffering (Leukemia, ACL Injury, Diabetes, Stomach Flu, and More) I remember Job and the answer God gave after 38 chapters of complaints and answers
“Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind and said: “Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge? Dress for action like a man; I will question you, and you make it known to me.”
Job 38:1-3 ESV
God didn’t explain His actions. He told Job to trust in him, to trust in God’s wisdom. In fact, God reminded me in James that He actually has more in store for me in suffering than just trusting Him.
“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds,”
James 1:2 ESV
God wants me to count it joy when I face trials. That’s tough to do. Trials stink, especially when it’s your knee aching or you are the one kneeling before the toilet. This reminds me of another verse.
“And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.”
Hebrews 10:24-25 ESV
I’ve learned I need other people. I don’t have the capacity to handle what life throws my way. I need to love others and I need others to encourage and pray for me. I need others to remind me to look to and trust in Him. I know that my Savior wants to give me rest and peace. My enemy wants to steal, kill and destroy.
So tonight I set my alarm early to take Isabelle in for another long day of chemotherapy and procedures. I trust our tomorrow to God.
Tonight a friend (Stacey Johnson) prepares for an operation treating a reoccurrence of breast cancer. I trust her tomorrow to God.
Tonight Ashley and many others face another day of pain hoping tomorrow will get better. I trust their tomorrow to God.